on friday successfully had a surprise bdae celebration for haffis at fg.

hmm.

he looked so diff le.

i can see tat he's really unhappy.

all his cheerfulness he used to had are gone.

hais felt so sad for him.

anw he's at genting now to celebrate his bdae.

hope tat he'll enjoy to his fullest.

and he'll look happier when the next time i see him.

(:

on sat dear went to marina to see me at work.

hee happy!

thanks my dear!

=D

kuyah dennis came to store to visit us!

i miss him so much!

hais.

i miss the team with '5brothers and 1sister'.

that's the nickname that 1 of the mgr gave us during the patch outing.

coz we're taking group photo.

there's 5male mgrs and me the only female mgr.

and now.

2brothers gone.

came 1 now brother.

sad.

):

hmm oso met dolly there.

well it had been ages ever since we last met or talked.

talked with her awhile.

happy!

at least she still bother to approach me to talk to me.

(:

on sun i rushed cny de schedule for james.

argh~

he just like to give work last min.

made me so headache.

watever it is.

im done with my work liao.

(:

met moon at marina de foodcourt!

shocked and happy to see her.

ya very long nv go back kallang le.

today i went for my driving lesson.

felt so scared and nervous today.

did not done well today.

next lesson on wed.

hope will do better!

(:

nina called me just now saying junaina is hospitalised.

due to kidney infection.

my god~

gg to visit her tmr.

im so looking forward to thursday!!

the real party night~!!

=DD

im having my breakfast-cum-lunch.

mum's cooking is always the best!!

=D

den meeting dila in the bus at 3pm.

gg to bugis coz she wana shop for haffis present.

think working today wont be bored ba.

got fadz fiza dila and me!!

but no matter wat.

our gang is still always short of 1 person...

):

back from my cny shopping~!!

1 slipper

1 shoe

2 tops

1 dress

3 shorts

i think i spent more den 200bucks?

my gosh~

no more shopping for me till mths later!

haa.

at the same time bought a belt for haffis as his bdae present.

ya the design that he was looking tat day when we were at raffles city with dila.

dila and me was like helping him to look for the design he likes.

he is just tat choosy and says none of them caught his eyes.

argh~

just hope tat he will like the one i bought for him ba.

(:

fiza dila fadz and me had plan surprise for him.

just hope tat the surprise will success.

coz he is just tat inteligent.

afraid tat he will noe we are doing something...

last minute plan changed!

not gg to airport le.

coz jessy cant come to sg.

so instead meeting up yun for cny shopping~

hee!

finall i can shop le!

=p

thanks jie for settling our renuion dinner on 17th!

hmm think i'll try to change shift with faizal so tat i finish work at 4pm.

although i hate to talk to him.

but at least if i finish work at 4pm i still can rush home to wash up and changed.

(:

yupp!

i managed to change shift with bee on 18th.

coz having date with dear for cny shopping!

hee!

thanks bee!

=D

yeah yeah~

so many dates coming up.

im just SO looking forward for everything!!

as usual.
i'll be gg msia for cny.
leaving sg on 23rd night.
back to sg on 28th night or midnight.
hmm..
dear i'll be missing u lots lots again...
):

just came back from my driving lessons!

learnt control of steering wheel and changing of gear.

yesh i took up manual instead of auto!

coz i wana challenge myself!

hee.

=p

my next lesson is on monday.

looking forward for it again!

=DD

dear did not go camp today.

naughty boy!

too bad tat i alr promised yun to fetch jessy at airport today.

if not i might meet him up.

coz this week i might not have the chance to meet him lor.

my schedule this mth sux!

im working for almost all weekends!

argh~

-_-

my so addicted to the song 'right now' too...

work is so boring today.

morning ok lah.

at least fadz is there.

actually i suppose to do my schedule de.

but down crews so i helped out on floor.

aft fadz went back at 4pm.

somemore today got no dila and no fiza.

im so bored.

me and the new 1st asst.

he is so unlike us.

so i dont really bother him tat much.

i talk to him only when he talk to me.

hais.

if i work with him everyday.

i might lose my sense of humour 1 day.

I WANT HAFFIS BACK TO MARINA SQUARE!!!

it had been 1week ever since haffis transfer out...

im glad tat dila is having good terms with her family members le.

i just feel like telling her.

no matter wat happens..ur family will still be there for u always (:

not working tmr.

but having driving lesson tmr.

i very hiong ba.

i booked 2slots continueously.

0830 - 1010 and 1020 to 1200.

=D

im so looking forward to wat will i be learning tmr!

hee!

=p

suddenly im just so emo.

i really dunno haffis had helped me how many times.

thanks to him that he took over my shift so tat i can have dinner with my jies.

thanks to him tat did not named me out for attachment so tat i can go out with my dear.

thanks to him tat always helped me to do things when im lazy to do so.

and now..

no one would take over my shift.

no one would help me to do things when im lazy to do so.

or perhaps im too rely on him le?

hais.

but till now even if i got any questions.

i will still call haffis instead of asking the new 1st asst even though he is just beside me.

argh~

till now..

i stil cant get over the sadness...

):

dunno y..i just got a very strong feeling tat u will come back to marina square soon 1day...

aft msn with haffis ytd.

he told me tat now he dragged himself to work daily.

kinda sad for him coz he's always cheerful and jokes while working.

and now he's telling me this.

hais.

me as his friend.

all i can do is to encourage him.

support him.

but he only transfer out for just 5days.

and he's telling me all these.

how is he going to survive over there long?

i really dunno.

and just now got msg from him.

saying tat he wana cry but cant cry.

he wana shout but cant shout.

he sad but no one noes.

hais aft seeing his msg.

i really feel sad for him.

i can imagine how is he suffering over there.

i told him tat we ppl over here is always there for him to support him.

i dont mind lending him my listening ears.

my friend, i really wish i can help u..but i really got no idea how to.all i can do is to encourage and support u all the way! (:

i really miss those days working with u.

dont worry.

u're not forgotten by us.

ur jokes are still repeating and happening in store almost daily.

now we ppl are copying and following the way u sing and dance.

how i wish we can sing dance and enjoy working tgt again.

i wish...

i wish... ...

i wish... ... ...

stayed at home for the whole day.

boring...

planning for another party night.

(:

just came back from my very first driving lesson.

fun and interesting.

enjoyed!

looking forward for my next lesson.

(:

dila told me tat she felt happier aft she talked to her mum.

and she can see her mum is happier too.

ya.

she let me remind me of myself when i was her age.

exactly the same thing happened to me too.

haiya tat was yrs ago le lah!

ytd tgt with dear attend his friend's engagement at aloha loyang.

the ceremony that both of them says 'i do'

the whole ceremony is so solemn.

first time i attend this kind of ceremony.

bless them!

(:

took back schedule task aft haffis transferred out.

hais.

im gonna have stress again.

wish me luck ba!

cny is like less den a mth.

i have not start my shopping yet!

i see my schedule this mth.

i seldom can meet dear!

sad!

cant go shopping with dear!!!

):

gonna have cny renuion dinner as usual.

tentatively on 17jan.

before june gg to bk and b4 i gg to msia.

the world is nv fair...

when will be my turn?

HAPPY 2009 TO EVERYONE~!!

wow!!

it had been 1mth plus ever since i last blogged.

i had been so busy!

my bdae celebration was great.

really thanks and appreciate those who came.

happy to see friends tat nv meet for long time.

esp all my poly friends.

hee.

tats really a memorable 21st bdae.

(:

hais.

actually december.

is not a very good mth for me.

except for my bdae.

got the news on 17dec tat haffis have to leave marina with immediate effect.

i felt so sad.

tear nearly roll down my face.

but still i control.

i call him immediately.

he sound so sad.

i really wish i can help him do something to let him stay.

den aft i went back to work aft my bdae leave.

and the plan changed.

he will leave on 31dec.

we all like grab any chance tat we have.

to stay out late.

to go for a meal.

to have fun during work.

to do everything we can.

and still.

i wana do something for him.

so we all came out with a petition letter.

got abt 50% of the crews signed.

i nearly going to submit it up to HQ.

then..

haffis noe abt it.

he persuaded me not to submit coz it might spoil my career.

so i can do nth.

waiting for the day to come.

most of ppl counting down for new year.

but he?

counting down for him to get transfer out.

it is so sad and cruel for him.

den on his last day 31dec.

i worked tgt with him.

we are still like have fun as usual.

but we noe tat tat is the last day we can have the fun.

tat is the last day we finished work tgt.

walked to the train station tgt.

took train tgt.

when will be the next time?

haffis pls dont forget us!

we wont forget haffis!

hais.

tats y i hate to say goodbye...

did not celebrate x'mas.

coz not in the mood ba.

n oso no one ask me out.

so forget it.

still rmb x'mas eve me dila and fiza was in town writing haffis' petition letter.

hais.

den new yr eve.

wanted to go mount faber to watch fireworks with dear.

but so sad mount faber was blocked.

den we went to nearby vivo to watched fireworks.

went to work on 1st day of the yr.

working with the team without haffis.

really felt so different.

felt empty.

...

):

went attachment at liang court.

was so damn boring lor.

no sales.

unlike marina.

perhaps im used to high volume store le ba.

den work at low volume store.

i will go crazy lor.

haha.

i can say im lucky to have him.

if not im afraid i will make another mistake again.

no matter wat happen ard me.

no matter i do.

no matter wat it is.

dear i love you one and only.

i promise.

(:

the party night is over.

did not went clubbing.

instead we bought 2 chivas and drank it at the chalet.

there's me.

haffis.

dennis.

fiza.

and dila.

we all really drink till forget the world.

unique experience.

i like it.

(:

i was unable to slp for the whole night.

so the next morning was so damn tired.

i really not feel like doing the crew outing.

go home and slp.

but still.

i forced myself to do it.

conducted the games.

ok lah they seems enjoyed it.

but i think is not as good as the previous one.

watever it is.

its finally over le.

and once again.

i lose my voice.

the worst thing of all is.

i have to work aft the outing.

im alr tired aft one sleepless night.

alr no voice aft conducted the outing.

still have to work.

its like so f*** lor.

hais.

but wat to do.

i was so fraustrated tat aft the outing ppl just wana go home like tat.

without helping.

argh~!!

i just feel tat im left out behind.

=(

another thing tat made me really boil is..

faizal mc.

f*** off lah him.

i really feel its so damn unfair~!!!

ARGH~!!!

wat to do.

this is life...

hais..

my shift is just so unsuccessful.

n i felt so unwell just now.

my head is so heavy.

argh~

i hate tat kind of feeling.

=(

its just so unfair!!

sad and sorry to say..

i just feel so unsecure

its a brand new day~!!

putting on big smile and off to work.

=D

2more days to the party tat everyone is waiting for...

thank god.

i think im fortunate.

(:

god..

may i ask u wat have i done wrong?

just came back from shopping for crew outing gifts with haffis and fadz.

i had wrapped them too.

yup 1 more thing had done.

(:

my god~!!

gapbuster results out.

ytd dinner.

lucky 100%.

of not james sure blame me de.

although not my shift.

but he actually wanted me to stay till 8pm.

but i 6plus go off le.

he nv inform me to stay till 8pm before hand.

so i go off aft i finish my task lah.

den he called me at 1852 asking me i go off liao ar.

den i told him i go off liao lah.

he still can tell me he tot tat i'll stay till 8pm.

duh..

i oso dunno.

den gapbuster came at 1856.

thank god 100%.

thank faizal fiza and zainab done a good job.

if not for sure i get it from him de.

but he oso dunno i not feeling well.

i went off and see doctor.

hais.

wat to do.

nvm lah.

as long as gapbuster result 100% can le.

(:

my 3 off days gone liao.

coz eric have to go espresso class.

and im going to liang court for attachment.

haa.

early in the month i told james i wana go.

but he planned eric to go instead.

and now my wish granted.

im going!

lols.

i somehow likes to go attachment.

coz like fun like tat.

haha.

crazy lah me.

i had been to many stores.

plaza sing.

centre point.

north bridge road.

junction 8.

and now liang court.

hee.

=p

the feeling of not feeling well real sux lor.

feel so tired the whole day.

hais..

=(

shopping is really real fun and great.

thanks jie for acc me shopping.

=D

finally got my heels.

ya for the wedding dinner i suppose to attend.

and oso got myself 1 shorts and a top.

and 3more tops on the way!

hee.

havent been shopping like this for a long time liao.

(:

myself..

im not very fine.

my coughing these few days is driving me crazy.

hais..

next week crew outing and clubbing.

really looking forward for it.

im the one who organise it once again.

but james dont wana me organise it coz i organised the one in may.

haffis dont wana me to organise it coz its not fair for me.

but as time draw near to the outing date.

seems like no one is taking any action.

so i start the ball rolling by booking the chalet and the transport.

and again haffis asked me is it alright for me to do all these.

i told him i dont mind de lah.

if wait for them to do.

i dunno wat will the outing becomes.

den next the games.

planned to be fadz in charge.

ohh my..

i better take over tat big task before the whole outing crops up.

coz to me wat i think the crews expect the most from a outing is the fun and entertainment so of coz is the games.

so since im experience in organising games all sorts of these.

i think i better do it.

i really dont mind whether is it fair or not.

i dont mind whether i did it before or not.

as long as everyone enjoys it im happy le.

(:

but of coz there's a level of stress too.

afraid tat they dont enjoy the games i planned for them.

hopefully not!

=p

work has been smooth all these days.

but today.

i had a 'big fall'.

well is it bcoz wat i had done ytd?

crews recently are really getting out of hands.

im just doing my job.
wat i supposed to do.

gave them the right punishment.

den wat i got back today?

scolded by customers.

i really break down.

im lost.

i dunno wat to do.

thank god haffis is there.

thanks.

but sorry that u got scoldings too.

even got scoldings from james too.

felt bad.

hais.

i try my best to think it positively.

i treat that as a lesson for me to learn.

(:

i cant rmb when is the last time i cried coz of work.

but its the first time aft 14mths me at marina.

i dont want to get transferred out.

I DONT WANT~!!

so wat heeren is opening another one?

crew outing is on 24nov.

hope is another fun and successful one.

(:

and 23nov is our clubbing night again.

looking forward!!

=DD

life is really not easy.

family.

bf.

friends.

work.

EVERYTHING!!

sometimes i really tired of living... ...

life is not easy and not as smooth as expected.

i may look happy and smiling infront of all.

but who noes there's sadness and sorrows behind all my smiles.

work..

been thru another freaking busy period.

f1 for 3days 26sep to 28sep.

worked opening till closing.

-_-"

but AT LEAST i still got the chance to sneak out to watch.

its really fun and excited.

aft f1.

here comes hari raya on 1oct.

its really so busy.

and somemore not enough crews.

coz most of my crews are malays.

so i dont really blamed them on coming to work late lah.

tats the only exception on tat day only.

other days i dont allowed!

well we all already so tried.

already not enough crews.

freaking customers can order:

'1 chicken leg and 2 potato'

'i want to order mcdonalds'

'i want mccafe'

its like TOTALLY OHH MY GOD lor.

shit all those customers.

den i went to my class on 13oct to 17oct.

learnt quite alot.

get to noe other ppl's experience.

get to noe more friends.

hmm love going classes.

but dont ask me to study full time.

think i cant make it ba

haa.

den went patch outing on 20oct.

i enjoyed.

not enjoying the games.

i think the games i plan for my crews are much more fun lor.

but enjoyed all the cam whore-ing with haffis and fadzli ba.

really cant stop laughing when with them.

and oso enjoyed pool session with my team.

although i did throw face there.

coz i duno how to play!

but i learnt abit and pick up some skills.

haa.

well thanks haffis and fadzli for acc me go early in the morning.

the both of them did closing the day b4.

and i forced them to acc me go.

coz if i go alone without them.

not fun de lor.

hee thanks ehh freaks.

=p

but i oso feel sorry for haffis coz he still need to go back store do closing aft the outing.

he dont want coz he says he's tired.

i did help him talked to james.

but james still nv change his mind.

i told him i take over him but he refused.

hmm sorry =(

well anw!

i had FINALLY handover crew scheduling this difficult task to haffis liao!

haha.

n i took over inventory.

its totally stranger to me.

but i believe i can learn alot from it.

still in the process of learning.

well i always turn to haffis if i've got qns.

tat day ended up he bombed me with alot of qns and i cant ans all.

and ya thanks for all ur qns.

made me cant update my chart.

if james looked for me.

i will find haffis!

lols.

hmm well.

now i've a goal target wish and hope.

by the end of the year 2009...

(:

ohh!

had went to OBA dinner on 18oct.

saw so many teachers.

mr sng.

mr francis.

mr khng.

mr seah.

ms tay.

mrs chou.

mrs tan so wah.

mrs dolly ong.

and saw tat WU GUI oso.

argh!!

yup yup.

im happy tat i went.

satisfied!

(:

u've seen my pretty side.

and now u had saw my ugly side.

u're the one who im afraid to see when im troubled.

u're the only one who i burst into tears when i see u.

u're the only one who can dig out my heart and mind just to let me speak out.

thanks for your hugs.

thanks for your shoulder.

i love you.

(: